Sometimes, life leaves you on your knees, in the downpour, with lightning crashing around you, and thunder rocking the very foundation of your being, feeling broken and wasted, down to your very core.
I've been there before, I'm there again.
These last couple months have brought me to some of the happiest points I've been at for a long time, and shattered that high place to bring me crashing down to the lowest level I could imagine. And really, I have no one to blame for any of it, but myself.
Talking the talk, and walking the walk, are as ever, very different things. The smallest choice, and the least of missteps, can still take you off the edge of a very tall cliff.
Betrayal from someone you invested time, trust, and your heart in is a extremely painful thing. It can keep you awake at night, or eat at you throughout the day. It keeps you wondering, and second guessing things.
I am still hurt, and confused over this latest turn of events. I still feel lost, and unsure about a great deal of things. The only thing that hasn't changed, is God is still standing there, as He always has, waiting to take me back from where I've strayed.
I wonder if I'll ever get to the point where I don't need to be broken to stop and listen for that still small voice.
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